Work in Progress

by Natalie Yuhas

 

When you’re young, 20 years old seems more than old; it seems ancient. As a six-year-old playing with my dolls and watching my Disney movies, I always assumed that I would have my prince by now and that I would be able to effortlessly say, “I became what I wanted to be when I grew up.” I had this mindset through all of grade school and even into high school. By the time I was 20 years old, I would have it all figured out. However, here I am, finally at this unimaginable 20-year-old mark in my life, and I don’t have it all figured it out. In fact, I’m not even close to having it all figured out.

 

I entered Boston College like many freshmen do: unsure of what I wanted to major in. It seemed like only a few seconds ago that I was worried about what prom dress I was going to wear and now only a few months later I was being forced to decide what I wanted to do with the rest of my life. How did everyone else just know? What if I picked a major and it was all wrong for me? What if I got stuck in a career I hate and am miserable? I had never felt so lost and unsure of who I was in my entire life. Then, one day at Mass, a priest was giving his homily and began talking about Philippians 1:6, which says, “For I am confident of this very thing, that He who began a good work in you will perfect it until the day of Christ Jesus.” The priest smiled and explained, “Don’t worry. You’re a work in progress right now. God is not finished with you yet.” These were exactly the words I needed to hear. God is not finished with me yet.

 

It can be so hard to forget that life is a journey. Even though things seem like a confusing mess right now, that doesn’t mean that they will always be a confusing mess. I stopped panicking about my major when I decided that I would be much more satisfied with my life if I pursued subjects I was passionate about rather than ones that would guarantee me a good job after graduation. Now, I couldn’t be happier with the path I chose and laugh about the fact that I ever thought pre-med was the path for me considering I still cry whenever I get a flu shot.

 

I am 20 years old, and I am imperfect. I have definitely had my fair share of mistakes. I have hurt people I love and disappointed people who mean the most to me. I’ve spent more time watching Netflix than I should and procrastinated on my schoolwork until the last possible second. I hate that I have hurt people I love, disappointed people who mean the most to me, and I hate that I have made so many mistakes, because I should know better than that and should be living a life that I am proud of every single day. But then I have to remind myself that I am not perfect, and no one is perfect. We are all works in progress. God is not finished with me yet. I am going to make mistakes, and all I can do is apologize when I should, forgive even when I don’t want to, surround myself with encouraging people who bring out the best in me, and remind myself that life is a journey and not a checklist. I am 20 years old and don’t have it all figured it out, but that is ok because I don’t have to have it all figured out right now. God is not finished with me yet.

 

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  • #1

    Tom Basista (Monday, 29 September 2014 04:24)

    Natalie,

    Well said. You are way smarter than what you realize.

    Let me leave you with a few quotes

    "Courage is fear that has said its prayers."

    "Failures are part of life. If you don't fail you don't learn. If you don't learn you'll never change."

    "Failure equals success deferred. Accept failure."

    You are doing a great job.

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